Monday, January 26, 2015 ++

What the heck 18 year-old Joycelyn. How did all those dumb thoughts ever come out of your mind? But my dear 18 year-old Joycelyn, you had no idea how things were going to be. Your vulgar mouth have since changed into words of wisdom and authority for many many children. You no longer is that girl who only looked at pictures of London and wished you can be there to take it all in. You no longer wait for your friends to call you out. You no longer are afraid of wearing your feelings on your face. You no longer...

You've got more close friends than you ever thought you had. You've got a job that, until now, makes you feel that you're making that difference to make society a better place for misfits. You've got closer to your parents. You've got so much more in you that you never thought you'd had.

What I want to say is... Stay real. Always.

9:10 PM

Monday, February 04, 2008 ++

Hello my rant board

Do i need to be aneroxic
Do i need to be beauty queen

Am i not good enough
Am i not bright enough
Am i just for fun

Is it too much to ask
for some attention?
Is it too much to ask
for you to talk to me?

What do you want me to be
What else should i need to do
What is your problem

Do i smoke too much
Am i out of your league
How different are we?

Oh no i sound like them
But fuck, I've been holding in for too long.
Oh please come to me
it's not like I'm invisible.

I need some love
It has been too long
How does it feel like
I just need it one more time.

My friends have done enough
and now it's your turn

Anybody who happen to read this,
this is the cry of joy.

No, i'm not trying to be poetic or anything like that.

4:38 AM

Friday, November 16, 2007 ++

This has to be a good post since I have not written anything - not a single thing - in here.

Gee what should i write about. Everything? Probably. There's one thing in my mind, it's interesting when you discover something new about your friends everyday.

Just when you thought you know all your friends (your lover even) as well as you know the alphabets, you actually don't know a thing. I may sound quirky but i realize i do not know the people around me as well as i thought i did and i find it really disturbing.

I mean i call you my friend and i do not even know your full name!

To me i find that my definition of a friend is ever changing. In the past, anyone that i come to know i consider them my friend. Now i have to actually categorize them, thinking through very hard, putting every moment we had then decide that they are my friends.

Sounds judgmental but that's how i work it out now.

Now that we're meeting new people every single fucking-no-meaning day and i seriously don't think i can actually call them friends. People relate each other as friends because they are too lazy to find a proper term for their acquaintances.

Oh well I'll just leave it as that.

8:36 AM

Thursday, November 09, 2006 ++

just watched "will it blend" goodness gracious. you should have seen how they blended the whole macdonalds meal together. ew.

it's e-learning week! and it's not very fun. it has just piled up more work for me. boo.

well anyways, october has been fun. Drama rehearsals, make up was the best part of it all. glitttter :)

November is okay i think. it has just started. nothing much to say actually. i'm so lazy.

9:38 AM

Monday, October 30, 2006 ++

Oh boy... it's been so terrible for me i dont know how to put it.

Ho ho ho, guess what mr nicholas lim deleted me of his friendster. okay. it's no big deal right. but why. it's so irritating ok i'm not going to let it get into my nerves. cos joycelyn knows it well by heart that it's not worth it. Not a bit.

So yes, i just found out about it yesterday. And at a moment's folly i drank too much. Well, there's free beer and alcohol so why not right. So it was halloween. this is probably the worst halloween for me. Stuck in a boring school like sp where all the students are so so interested in dota. West siders are so imature. anyway whatever la.

9:38 PM

Tuesday, August 22, 2006 ++

Life with good friends feel so much better. They shine like the sun and when the rain falls, they will always be there to shelter me. I will do the same to them.

Although we just get to know each other for just a few months, it never felt so right. And together we bring infectious joy to everyone!

sooooo ugly gabbbby

9:31 AM

Saturday, August 05, 2006 ++

I remember the first time i tried the yong tau foo in singapore poly and sweared out loud that i'm not going to eat another bowl of shit from the yong tau foo stall. But i just bit my own tongue when i tried my friend's soup. "hey it isnt that bad when in the soup" and yeap this is how I, Joycelyn the great, became frequent yong tau foo supporter. "What about my scrambled eggs?!", the mediteranian stall's aunty will scream. Then the wan tan mee uncle will whine "is it because of my wantan is so salty?". Joycelyn, " erm no, i'm just feeling fucked up so i need to eat shit."

what happened?

It's the starting of august and i've spent so much more than i usually did. And i dont like the feeling of overspending. Makes me feeel like there's no more freedom to do things. Money is the root to all evil, but, no money no fun. So say fuck to those who hate money.

I am comtemplating if i should work at borders. I dont mind working there but i'm afraid of the people working there. They look... intimidating. "ARH!!!! dont kill me!" But i have to make up my mind by monday. Cos Monday is another changing point for my life! so scarrry.

Any job offers for me?

My resume:-
Joycelyn is :
- entertaining
- wierd in a good kind of way
- passionate in whatever she's doing
- enthusiastic maniac
- a wannabe
- have a flexible timing from 12am-5pm
- in need of money and love
- pretty
- nice
- lovely...
and the list goes on and on. Looking through, i'm like the perfect employee for every employer.

Huh, you want to look at my latest pictures? Okay u want it, you've got it.